What makes us who we are? This little question has been buzzing around in my head for a long while. What makes us like what we like? When I asked someone this, I got the answer "we do", and of course she is right. But sometimes, when you stumble upon something that just feels so right... I don't think we decide it then. I have this relationship with all things even remotely connected to magic, for instance. Saying I'ver always loved it isn't wrong. I've never not liked it and known of its existance at the same time. And I doubt it has anything to do with inheritance either. Mainly, that would be very depressing, and in my family, everyone has very distinctive interests. I'm not going to answer my own question - I can't. It's too impossible to say xD

I think I'm starting to become more 'me' than I was a while ago. It feels nice. I used to keep this shield, this shell, up around me, making sure no one could see completely who I was. Or, no one is wrong. I'm pretty certain some saw through it, and those are the people I care about the most even today :) But I believe almost everyone got the wrong impression of me before. If someone showed up who hadn't seen me in a few years, they'd think I'd changed radically. But I haven't, I've just got more guts. It's still me, it's just that my little shield has been teared apart, and I'm happy. I like wearing strange earrings and black jackets and converses. I like messing a bit around with jewelry. Listening to music people wouldn't think was me. But it is me. I'm happy. I've got a bunch of people to hang out with, and I feel like I belong. Thanks to all that makes that happen :) (All I need now is to let my nerdy side out a little. Gambit rocks!)

And at last: I don't believe in stereotypes. I'll probably write more about this later, but for now:

If high school stereotypes existed, what would you call:

The black-clad pink haired girl who loves metal, but who has a passion for physics and does really well at school?

The platinum blonde who cares a lot about clothes and make-up, who is popular but is really kind to everyone, no matter what?

The rather normal, popular girl who loves My Chemical Romance?

The girl with glasses who is good at school, listens to rather noisy music, dresses in black and wears orange, square earrings?

The guy who is just like everyone else, and loves Bring It On-movies?

No, stereotypes don't exist. Some are pretty close, but we've all got something different. We're all something more than stereotypes. And yes, all of the people above are people I know or know of. One is me, you should be able to guess who.

And it's getting late, and I'm obviously not at a party. Life sucks :( Oh well. There'll be other chances, I'm sure. But I need a life. If you see one for sale, give me a tip. Good night!

Love you all~

*huggles for all of you reading*